I grew up watching fairytales. I grew up wanting to have the same story as them. I grew up dreaming that one day, i will meet my “prince”. Haha! Bat ganun? Naco-corny’han na ko ngayon. :)) Pero hindi, totoo yun. :) I’ve always wanted those enchanted movies. Sobrang saya ko pag nakakapanood ng mga ganung movies. Yung mga “A Cinderella Story” and “Enchanted”. I swear, pag napapanood ko ulit sila, nagiging light yung feeling ko. Haha! Di ko ma-explain. Basta yun na yun! :)) I just really lovemagical things. Basta yung mga ganung bagay. :) I’ve always wanted to be a princess. :) Haha! Ibang klase no? :))

But growing up, I’ve seen the difference between these fairytales and reality. That left me being sad. I’ve seen broken families. I’ve seen broken people because of love. I’ve seen how hurt children can be upon seeing their parents separate. I’ve seen failure on soooo many relationships. I’ve seen how painful love is. What made up in my mind was maybe, that’s just really how life goes. So yung mga happy endings?  i thought they were impossible to happen here. Ang lungkot no? That’s what’s hapenning in reality. And I have to accept it. That was the image that formed in my mind. Kaya di na ko nag-hope for a love story na sobrang ganda. :|

But then everything changed when I met the Prince of peace. :) I came to know that I’m His princess! O di ba?! Princess parin. Haha! Nagkatotoo ung dream ko. :)) But seriously, I’ve seen love in a different perspective. :) Nung nakilala ko Siya, I started seeing families that every person would hope to have. :) I started seeing couples who love each other genuinely. I started seeing thebeauty of love; the beauty of marriage; the beauty of patiently waiting for the one. :) I’ve seen my “dream love stories” in the real world. Those things that I thought were impossiblesuddenly became possible. I had hope! My heart felt soooo happy that I could dream againbecause I know it’s going to come true. :) As in, thank You Jesus that You came into my life! Thank You that You changed my mindset about relationships. :) I can’t explain the beauty of things when Jesus is there. It’s just …more than beautiful. :)

I’ve come to realize that happy ever afters do exist as long as Jesus is in the center of the relationship. :) If Jesus is in the heart of both persons. If both persons are sooo much in love with Jesus that they would even place Him first before each other. If both persons truly love Jesus more than anything. :) See, if both persons are in love with Jesus, then their relationship would be sooo beautiful. I can just imagine it. :) Yung love na maibibigay ng bawat isa is just an overflow of God’s love to them. I can see how wonderful that relationship would turn out to be. :)

If you were a child of a broken family, a child with parents who do not have a beautiful/good relationship, a child who have witnessed how painful it is to be in a relationship that you becameafraid that one day, it will also happen to you and your future partner.. I want you to know that if you decide right now to put your future relationship in God’s hands, He won’t let you be in that same situation. You will not experience the situation of your parents. Let God be your Healer. :) I know the pain of it, but let Him heal you. ;) You can hope again because happy endings do exist! :)

Wait for the right time. Don’t rush into love. There is joy in being a single. ;) Kasi ako, right now, I’m just concentrated on pleasing, loving and serving my Jesus. :) Every season of singleness is a gift from God. Darating din yung time na makikilala natin siya. :”> Hahaha! Nakaka-excite yun! Pero Lord, steady my heart. :)) Jk. I’m waiting, too. Matagal pa naman yun. But we must have a vision. :) And by the way, don’t settle for less! Your standards should be coming from God! :) Guard your heart and protect it. His best will be here someday. :) And keep praying. ;) God always wants the best for His children. :) The best love stories are those that God writes. Let Him write your love story. ;) 

I’ve read this somewhere and I would love to share this to you guys . .

@singleladies: Don’t look for a prince charming. Look for the Prince of peace.

@singlemen: Learn the ways of the Prince of peace — that’s the way to becoming a “prince charming” for your princess.

Ayy wait, pahabol lang! :)) “Happy ever afters” that I’m talking about do not look like this:

It doesn’t end up on weddings. ;) It just starts here.

“Happy ever afters” is this: 

It is being able to withstand the storms of life and growing old together. :)

Grabe!! Grabe yung nararamdaman ko dito sa puso ko. Hindi ko ma-contain yung love na ‘to. Grabe lang yung ginagawa Niya sa puso ko. Parang, alam mo yun? Yung tipong, “God, Sayo na ‘tong buhay ko. Sayo na ‘to lahat. Sayo na yung puso ko. Lahat ng gagawin ko, sasabihin ko, para Sayo lahat yun. Kasi, wala rin naman meaning lahat ng nasa buhay ko kung wala Ka e. Wala ako kung wala ka. I’m Yours, Lord” :’)

Akala ko dati, okay na ko. Naniniwala naman ako sa Kanya. Kinakausap ko naman Siya minsan, hmm, pag sobrang wala na nga lang akong maiyakan. Akala ko kaya ko ng ako lang. Akala ko kaya kong magdesisyon ng ako lang. Akala ko kaya kong solusyunan yung mga problema ko ng ako lang. Akala ko strong ako. Akala ko ang galing ko. Ang selfish ko pala. Grabe! Puro ako lang yung iniisip ko. Ni-thank you for this day Lord, hindi Niya narinig sakin nun. Hindi ko alam na sa lahat pala ng yun, sa bawat araw, nandito lang pala Siya. Na walang araw na iniwan Niya ko. Walang araw na hindi Niya ko binabantayan. Walang araw na iniwan Niya ko. Grabe! Ang kulit kulit ko. Ang tigas tigas ng ulo ko. Pero hindi Siya napagod mahalin ako. Hindi Siya napagod kakaintindi. Hindi Siya napagod kakahintay sakin. Hindi Niya ko iniwan kahit na araw araw ko Siyang sinasaktan. Haaay. Naiiyak na ko. :’) Sorry. Si Jesus kasi e. :’) Sobrang hindi ko ma-explain kung gaano lang ka-amazing yung pagmamahal Niya sating lahat.

  Nung nakilala ko talaga Siya, nung binigay ko yung buhay ko sa Kanya, for the first time in my life, i felt true love. I felt peace. I felt complete. I had hope again. I felt happiness beyond explanation. Sobrang glorious ng day na yun. Sobrang na-inlove ako sa Kanya. Hindi ko makakalimutan yung araw na yun. Sobrang beautiful. :’) All my fears disappeared. Yung mga pain na naramdaman ko, yung brokenness, grabe! He healed them all. Sobrang iniiyakan ko lang Siya nung day na yun. Sobrang nararamdaman ko yung pag-hug Niya sakin. Yung feeling na, kaming dalawa lang nun. Moment namin yun. :’) Mula nung araw na yun, I decided to follow Him all the days of my life. He changed me. Ang dami Niyang tinuro sakin. Hindi ko na kayang saktan Siya ulit. Ayoko nang mag-run away from Him kasi the truth is, I belong to Him. Now, I’m home. And forever ko Siyang mamahalin. Minsan nga, pag kinakausap ko Siya, sinasabi ko sa Kanya na excited na kong yakapin Siya ng totoo. Excited na kong makita Siya. Excited na kong makasama Siya. :’) Minsan kasi, sobrang ang sakit na. Minsan, sobrang nasasaktan kasi ako dito. At pag nasasaktan ako, nasasaktan ko rin Siya. Pag nalulungkot ako, nalulungkot din Siya. :’( At ayoko Siyang nasasaktan. Ayokong napapalungkot ko Siya. Pag nagkasama na kami, masaya na palagi. Haaaay. Grabe lang talaga yung love Niya. As in!

Gusto ko lang din i-share to. Maybe you’re thinking na hindi mo kayang ibigay kay God yung buhay mo, maybe you’re thinking na, ang dami mo nang nagawang mali, na parang imposible nang tanggapin ka ni God, well, LIES lahat yan. Kasi, sobraaaa ka Niyaaaang mahal. Kung ano yung ginawa niya sa puso ko, gagawin Niya rin yun sayo. ;) Kasi, mahal ka Niya. :’) Hindi naman Siya galit sayo eh. Nasasaktan lang Siya. Sabi nga sa Romans 5:8, “But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.” Hindi mo kailangang ayusin muna yung buhay mo bago ka lumapit sa Kanya. Hindi mo kailangang maging okay muna bago mo Siya puntahan. Kasi imposible rin namang mabago mo yung buhay mo kung wala Siya e. Alam mo? Sobrang mahal ka na ni God dati pa. While we were still sinners, namatay na Siya para satin. Binigay na Niya lahat. Para lang malaman mo na hindi ka Niya iiwan. Na ang gusto Niya lang, magkaroon kayo ng relationship. Sobrang tagal ka na Niyang hinihintay. Yung puso mo lang yung ibigay mo sa Kanya. I know, He’s gonna change your heart from glory to glory as well. :) 

God is never gonna stop loving us. He is faithful. He died so we can experience freedom, so we can feel complete, so we can have hope again. He’s just waiting. He doesn’t care about your past. He doesn’t care about how far have you been from Him. He doesn’t care where you’ve been. He just loves you, purely. He will forgive you. Just give your heart to Him. Promise! Yun ang pinakamagandang mangyayari sa buhay mo. You will never feel alone, ever! You are loved. ;) Sobra ka Niyang mahal. :)

So come home running, just as you are.

His Arms are open wide.

His name is Jesus and He understands. :)

Hindi ako makatulog kagabi. Kaya ayun, nag-moment na lang kami ni Lord. Haha! :D Tapos nakikinig ako ng songs from my iPod randomly. My Beloved ni Kari Jobe yung tumugtog nun. Then there was this powerful line that struck me. Sabi sa kanta, ”I see no stain on you, My child.” Naiyak na lang ako bigla kasi naalala ko na naman yung grace na yun. :’) Well, madalas Niya talaga kong pinapaiyak. Haha! Pero okay lang, basta Siya. :)

He is the King of all kings, Name above all names, God of the universe, tapos ako? Ayun, no one. Sabi nga sa kanta, “Who am I that the Lord of all the Earth would care to know my name and would care to feel my hurt.” Compared to Him, sooobraaang layo ko! Sobrang liit ko lang. Hmm, totoo yung langit Siya tapos lupa ako. Ang drama! :)) Pero seriously, that’s the truth. We don’t deserve to be cared and be loved by Him because the truth is, we are nothing. He is pure, holy and blameless. E tayo? But He loved us anyway. He even knows all of our days! Written lahat yun sa book Niya. (Psalm 139:15-16) Ganun tayo ka-importante sa Kanya. Grabe no? :)

Tapos ayun nga, He went down on earth. Ang sarap kaya ng buhay Niya up there! Yet, He chose to come down to show us love. I was humbled down by the fact that He left all the comfort there. He even went here to serve men. (Mark 10:45) Grabe! He is God! But He served men. I was humbled down again. :’) Then, He also suffered so much. Yung crown of thorns, whips, hits, mocks, people even spit on Him! :’( Tapos sinabi parin Niya, “Forgive them for they do not know what they are doing.” Sinong tao ang magsasabi nun pagkatapos ng lahat ng ginawa sa Kanya? :’( I was humbled down again. :’) With that fact, how could I also not forgive? How could we not forgive? Haaaayyy.. Isang salita lang naman Niya, pupuntahan naman Siya ng lahaaaat ng angels Niya to save Him! Ang dami Niyang pwedeng gawin to save Himself! He is God! Pero inisip Niya ko. :’( Inisip ka Niya. He was thinking about all of us when He was suffering. He remained silent. Tiniis Niya lahat yunkasi kung nag-give up Siya, kung sasabihin Niyang “Ayoko na.”, hindi Niya tayo makakasama. :’) At syempre, ayaw Niyang mangyari yun. Gusto Niya kong makasama. :’) Gusto ka Niyang makasama. Ganun ka Niya kamahal. :’) 

Ang laking bagay na nung forgiveness. Sobrang humbled down na ko dun. Di ko deserve yun, pero grace is grace. :’) Yung buong buhay ko, kulang pang i-offer ko yun as a way of saying thank you sa lahat ng ginawa Niya para sakin. Kaya grabe! I was really humbled down nung sinabi Niyang, “”No matter how deep the stain of your sins, I can remove it. I can make you as clean as freshly fallen snow. Even if you are stained as red as crimson, I can make you as white as wool.” (Isaiah 1:18) Ugh. :’( Naiiyak talaga ko sa verse na ‘to. :’( This means, wala na yung past ko. Yung mga nagawa ko, everything has been paid for on the cross. :’) Everything has been removed. :’) Everything was nailed with Him. He took away our sins, our brokenness, our unforgiveness, our pride, our hopelessness. Nakapako na yun lahat sa cross!

We are now healed. We are new creations of this loving God. So let’s not put to waste what He had gone through just to give us life. Let’s live for Him all the days of our lives. He deserves that. :’)He deserves our everything. He loves you more than anything. :) He has everything in this world. Lahat ng nakikita mong maganda dito sa earth, sa Kanya naman lahat yun e! Pero do you know what matters to Him most? Yung puso mo. :’) Ikaw. Tayo yun. :’) So just in case you san out of reasons to believe that God still loves you; if you’re struggling to get a head-start for your comeback,remember the cross. LET HIS LOVE CARRY YOU BACK. ;)

It doesn’t matter what you’ve done..

I still love you.

It doesn’t matter where you’ve been..

You can still come home. :)

Yes, i’m happy. Actually, I’m more than happy. :) This joy is overwhelming. And it’s because of His love. :) The biggest problem would be about our family. There was a time that my parents almost separate. It’s not yet solved now. And it hurts me. But I’m holding on to God’s promises. I believe that it’s gonna be fixed, someday, in His time, because He is God and He fulfills His promises. :)